whole and holy

if there’s one thing i’ve learned about the Lord it’s that He is consistent in his nature.

consistent in pouring out grace. consistent in an endless pursuit for my heart. consistent in calling me His beloved daughter. consistent in unconditional love. consistent in his “yes”.

if there’s one thing i’ve learned about myself it’s that i’m trying to grow in consistency. keyword: trying.

trying to be consistent in pouring out grace. trying to be consistent in an endless pursuit of the Father’s heart and the hearts of the people around me. trying to be consistent in calling my God my Father. trying to be consistent in unconditional love. trying to be consistent in my “yes”. it’s absolutely worth it, but it’s also hard as heck.

over the past couple years, i’ve come to realize that the moon is such a representation of how i see the Lord.

the moon comes every night. it always rises again. after the long days. the good days. the hard days. and the extra joy-filled days. regardless of circumstance, it rises. and the moon is always the moon. at its peak, it’s full. brightly illuminate. in its wholeness. it’s beautiful and full of light. it, of course, goes through different phases of being fully lit, but at its essence is whole.

similarly, the Lord’s mercies are new every morning (if you doubt, look up lamentations 3:22-23). the Lord is always consistent. always who He says He is. always whole. always full of and in the light. and while he is always omnipresent, i think there are times where i actually feel like i see the Lord in phases. unable to actually see and feel and comprehend Him in his fullness. for all of what He says He is — whole and holy. it doesn’t mean that i don’t believe, or lack faith, but that sometimes, in the deepest pits of despair, it’s hard to differentiate the Lord and the enemy and the world and to continue to trust that He is good and who He says He is.

yet, what i’ve actually learned is that the Lord is the most consistent. might i even call Him Consistency. He should be my measure. He should be my guide. and in the moments when i feel like he’s a mere crescent, may i always be able to remember Him as a full moon. 

a friend recently told me “the idea of God showing his great, tender compassion towards you is near unfathomable, yet you so incredibly compassionate to others – quick to give grace, happy to give a second chance and eager to show kindness. our God, holy and perfect, loving beyond measure doesn’t force himself to show us compassion, He longs to do it.”

over the past year, i’ve been learning so much about the Lord’s faithfulness. if you notice, the only other blog i’ve posted is here, titled “faithful You are” and that was almost a year ago to date. and i think this is going to be a year full of learning consistency. not of my own accord, not of the things i can control, but actually, wholeheartedly, understanding the Father’s consistent nature and believing that He, too, is pouring out great, tender compassion on me. showing me grace abundant. giving me second and third and fourth chances. being gentle and kind to me.

 

may we begin to understand the depths of our worth.

may the Lord give us eyes to see His character — whole and holy.

may we feel His outpouring compassion, love and grace.

 

because He is good.

praise Him. forever.

 

love you deep,

car